Soon I'll be at sea...

Well lots on my mind today...

First and foremost how some people can be so stubborn that they forget how much people important people, spouses, siblings, children..mean to them until it is too late then they are destroyed...

I see this happen way too often.. People who talk about how much they hate someone, how this someone treats them, because they really love them, because they just want some positive attention and they are not happy with the attention they are getting.. it is the wrong time, it is interrupting their TV show etc... I look at my own parents, and family members, and even me of old.

It is so sad I see people spend a lifetime together they start off in love so much in love then they grow distant because of arguments stemming from financial usually, job situations etc.. they either end up divorced like me, or slowly starting to hate each other until they almost live separate life's, they no longer sleep in the same bed, hold each other, embrace and comfort... They begin to sleep in separate rooms; or at different times. They do different activities, instead of agreeing to disagree and at times finding a common interest they can both participate in.. nothing will please them they expect and demand to be served by one another.. until one breaks then the other takes control and it goes on like this back and forth.. a survival technique.. it become a case of who can escape the best to save their sanity..

then on of them gets ill, very very Ill, near to death and the whole lifetime together comes down to the few months they have left with each other everything is new again fresh and renewed but it is too late..

After one of them dies the other is left wishing they would of never been as stubborn as they were.. and the rest of there life becomes a regret of what was missed...

What a horrible way to live.. I hope I learn from this .. I would rather stay single than to be like that where I grow to hate someone... until I realize how much I actually love them, when it is too late.

J