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I finally made it home it took me two days to get here but i made it. I feel so different, I dunno what it is exactly but something about me is different, I feel motivated maybe, more confident, refreshed and ready to take on whatever is thrown at me.. I have been finding myself slipping back and then jumping out you know.. not letting things get to me at much and caring about the things that really matter.. my real friends, my family and my loved ones.. I love it. I saw Ed today we talked a bit about his dad.. Ed told me his dad thought I was bad news.. it is so funny with that, in life I am eccentric, but not enough. I have my moments but I am not bad enough to play DJ with the girls, because I am not bad at the end of the day I know where I came from, and I respect people who respect me. Ironically Eds dad spoke to me about how happy he was I was on the ships at one point.. either way he is gone and I need to be there for Ed he is my friend, but I still don't like Joey.(my old drummer). It felt kinda weird hanging out with Jevon, you know, we had a pint at the Steam-works in Vancouver, went to see my new friend Kaylee in concert, I liked it though wanted to mainly listen and chat a bit last time I saw him I offloaded this time I attempted to be who I was and it didn't feel right so I cut back... I think I am going to go to church tomorrow. Jean stopped by today to I was disappointed none of us meaning me and my bros were on Roy's' Tribute video, but I am used to being left out now.. dad made a good point at the end of the day they aren't blood, they are like family to us but not our family... Doty was the same the same happened there, Nana was the same the same happened with her.. everyone was acknowledged except us and the fact we are not in England with the family there even though they are family the same will probably happen there.. I received a letter stating My ex has applied for an Annulment that excites me I have felt unwelcome in the church since we split this will clarify that.. well maybe i am feeling like this because Spring is here a time for new beginnings new life or maybe it is because my Springtime is finally here and it is my turn to right the wrongs.. as Roy would of said stating the great Frank Sinatra "Mistakes I've made a few but then again too few to mention, I did what I had to do and saw it through without Exemption, I've lived a life thats full I've traveled each and every byway and no oh no not me I did it My way" I have done it my way and not in the box and you know what no other way would work for me. SO sorry to everyone I have hurt I never meant to do that, but next time read between the lines and you may se the fuller picture I love you all and you know who you are.. night - jj