Questions

Well

They say the first sign of insanity is to repeat the same mistake over and over again and not learn from it, so... is it partial insanity to do the same thing in a different situation, learn from it and do it again only to learn something new??

Well that is the predicament I am in right now, life is a bit of a mush, but I have learned an awful lot and feel quite motivated from it, well for one.. I told a fried how I feel about her and I also told her friends how I felt, they asked me what do I have to loose I replied with her friendship, they convinced me it would never happen she doesn't dump her friends, so I went for it took the plunge, she unfortunately did not feel the same I am not her type and the weight again has come to play as a part of it, just like my two other exes, what does this make me want to do well loose the weight, I don't want to be turned down any more from attractive healthy women, yes I am just as bad not going to lie, although she was different, because she is bigger herself right now, we had such a connection it bugs me, we kept planning to do things and they would never happen, but when we did hang out it was fun.. ie we were going to hit the gmn never happened, so I am going to do it myself instead of one day out i will gymn it, going to get a wii for the fit program, I realized again what I like and want, that of course being quality over quantity...

My bro asked me to travel with him to pick up his new car in Calgary.. I said yes... was supposed to leave 20 minutes ago.. he never got an answer on time wasted the money on a ticket wont do that again!

oh there is more but I will stop there..

later

J

B Day Time

Well it is that time of year again where I get older yuk yuk yuk.. but it also means free stuff yay!! I love free stuff. Anyway, this got me to thinking where is the closest Kelly Os now that the Surrey location is closed, and they give free dinners!!! To my surprise I found it is no longer just them.. back in the day, It used to be that just Kelly O’Bryan’s was the place to go on your birthday since you got a free meal. But now that I can no longer go to one as the closest is in Westbank and Kelowna I had to get online to do some of my own research.. here is what I found... Nowadays it’s mostly just “any entree up to $____”. or a free desert but here it is...

TGI Fridays and Denys both give free Birthday meals

Fogg n Suds - Bring 3 friends and your meal/dessert are on the house (up to $20).

Free: Dessert: Milestones, Odouls, Sammy J Peppers, White Spot, TGIFriday’s, Red Robin, Boston Pizza and Montanas (warning, singing may be involved)

Red Robin - Coupons, if you sign up for their email spam, and dessert.

The Keg - Dessert and then they will sing to you as well.

Here are a few more B day perks in the Vancouver area...

Swiss Chalet, and Las Margaritas - Free dessert

Mondo’s Gelato - Free scoop

Blockbuster Rewards - Free rental

Rogers Video - Free rental

Blenz also offers a free beverage on your birthday

so it should be a fun bday with all the freebies!!!

As for life well all is well finally won my case so I am getting all my insurance premiums for MC will be reimbursed soon... yay I won!!! And I have been working like crazy lots of auditions and a bunch of film and TV stuff coming up!

Hope all is well with everyone else.. Oh man I met a crazy gal the other day on a dating site... she was creepy.. besides that all is fine and dandy!

ttyl

JJ

Life..

Well ello

I am heading out to meet a friend from the ships she signed of today and has all day in van so should be fun... don't have too much time here.. but the third came last night DJed for a Strippers wedding and all hell broke loose.. they were kicked out and three were arrested one of the gals ripped her boobs out and another screwed a guy in the bathroom.. all made for an interesting night! lovin the dj gig!! well ttyl JJ

On Set / from last week

Hello Blog...

Well here I am on the set of 2012 ... it has been interesting day needless to say... the wrangler is a bit of a prick the other one is nice! Went out to Shadow Inn by SFU Last night, which of course got me thinkn of the ex seens I was in her neck of the woods... and back there this mornin too like two blocks from her house on the bus I got... but I was with Craig last night my partner in crime and we had man venting time otherwise known as bromance lol... had wings and beer then we headed to Pizza Factory to Meet with Mike from Stan Helsing and I crashed at his place.. even had a semi decent texting session with the ex as we call her here out of respect for her... but back to today ...first off the bus did not connect like it should of so I arrived at the lot right on time... then I couldn't find the holding area... so I didnt get to the tent until 15 minutes after which is so not me... it was a bit of a pain.. phoned my Agent though to let him know.. then it started to rain.. so here I am sitting in the rain... Although the texts were short and decent yesterday... and she has called me a few times... things have been weird as they are.. we are in the rules stage of things.. but we are not together so I don't know why I care, but I do... I am thinkin this will be how it is for a few weeks at least.. she has been calling me, I have txt her a few times... going to wait until I feel comfortable again with her before I call her.. after all she broke my heart for no reason.. two in a row...I fell like I am having to be careful with what I say and I don't like that... I really miss the conversations we used to have.. she is an amazing person and I just hope we can become better friends but I guess that will take some time we really have fun together.. I miss it!!! Well I am sure in due time all will be well at least we are still keepin in touch sigh... although I wish it were more... but I will take it as it is, I am sure I will hear less and less from her untill she stops chattin all together.. I hope not... but that is usually how it is... I will be honest I would be quite sad if it ended up like that... well just ventin.. gonna get back to work!

J

It comes in threes waitin for the third one....

Hey all

Well here I am.. Life has been pretty good the last month or so then bang.. shit hits the fan.. this seems to be the norm in my life.. let me explain, Well the living situation is great at the moment... the work situation couldn't be any better and besides some issues with the mother my relationship was great.. it had been nearly a month for my ex and I .. she seemed super happy as was I .. I mean I was really thinking she may be the one.. not right away mind you but possible candidate for the future... we were having such a blast together so many similarities.. lots of similar likes.. lots of differences too.. a balance...then she went away for a wedding.. I ambitiously waited for her to return.. we txtd each other back and forth all was great.. then we spoke on the phone and she was so distant and we met up on the Monday after she got back she gave me a kiss but pulled away quick... we had an expensive dinner I gave her some roses I bought her, then we went to a movie... nothing... I tried to get her in the mood... but nothing and after the movie we stopped to chat and she broke up with me.. out of the blue for really no reason.. and you know what I am so bloody confused... this is like Hellen my ex from highschool all over again she went away with her mom and then broke up with me when she returned... right before prom at that... I know with T it was a short relationship.. but I was sooo comfortable and from what I could see so was she.. we spoke on the phone yesterday she said there were some little things and she to was confused she was scared and not ready for what we were becoming.. understandable then the mom thing.. like we are talking mega control freak in her life... we talked for nearly an hour.. but it was random talk.. we both said we miss each other... she asked me to wait for her but not hold back either... truth be told.. I love her... I am soo stupid wear my heart on my sleeve.. I fall in love way to fast and easy... you know I try to trust people from the getgo, even after this, part of me is hoping this is a hiccup while she sorts her head out but I don't know and I am kind of lost at what to do as well it is just a weird one.. Now on top of that my cousin Angela is in the hospital.. hey it doesn't sprinkle it pours... now I am waiting for the third thing to top it all up.. it always comes in Threes! She said a few mean things last night then phoned back to say sorry... man I hope she sorts her shit out I was enjoying our little world.. :( either way if we can stay as we were minus a few of the intimate things I think we will be alright she is a fun gal to hang out with... well off to get ready for another single fun filled night with Craig...

James

New Kareoke Venue!!

Well hello all

So The local Pub the Duke of Wellington has started Karaoke on Wednesday nights so from now on that will be where I am on Wednesdays, they have three wings for a buck and 4 dollar pints of Lager, come join me on Wed nights at the duke! Also this Saturday I start my DJ job for Party Central DJ Services at Newlands in Langley if you are around drop by and say hi! Next week I will be part of the Film Stan Helsing I will take some pics to post here! ttyl

James

Thats Life...

Well allot is goin on here just had to write a bit about it.. I have made some new friends over the last little while chatted with one tonight it was a great talk had a good laugh!! I have also been cast in a show that will reflect some local history for Canada Day and BC Day playing logger and start Djin at Newlands in July so all is well as of now.. will keep you all updated out there if anything changes.

Went to manning park today with the niece and nephews and fam had a blast it was such a simple day didnt cost anything except gas.. spent most of the day feeding birds and marmots the came right to my hand and the veiw up there is amazing I will def. be back there soon, well chat later..

Back home

Well here I am back home.. thank God that was a Gong Show!!! So here I find myself looking for work.. it has been quite a while lol but it is about time.. if anyone knows of a place who needs a Entertainer for hire let me know lol

will keep you updated..

J

Here in Red Dear

Well here I am at a friends

Probably for the last time ... it has not been the best of trips thus far as her boy friend and friends from PG visiting seem to be more interested in smoking dope than being productive.. and that is no longer my scene, not to mention it seems to be that everything happening is revolving aroung these friends they get the new room I stay on the couch where I have been since I got here.. it feels like I am kind of an afterthought. It is so funny because for a while this is how my life was I didn't realize how bad I must of looked to everyone.. but it is a good taste of reality . She had moved on and was doing quite well for herself she had lost weight and had a job was looking to go back to school that was about a year ago... now she is engaged living in a dump and has gone down hill... she is stressing today because they were evicted and have to move... well actually their lease was not renewed, but instead of packing everyday a bit they started two days ago they have known for a month and informed me before I arrived... I assumed they would be a bit more organized should of known though... now her friends helping have disappeared and left me with her and she is bitchy. As for me I have been getting out with her friend and her boys and husband and have had fun with them but this sucks... I don't really want to be here anymore.... she tried to play a guilt trip on me but there is zero guilt they need to get there shit together I refuse to be pulled down that road again!

I wrote this....

you were doing so well
had a story to tell
you finally had become the person I knew you could be

I was so happy for you
and who you 'd become
you looked like you were finally free

but h ere you are
a few months on
and all the motivation now seems to be gone

Only whineing to tell
your lifes gone to hell
to see you like this destroys me

He babys you
doesnt motivate you
and you are ten steps back

in the room smoking dope
not working
and lost

I know you are ill
but you were not letting it win
now here you are fading half of who you were
you have given in

he is doin shrooms
you smokin dope to cope
you are lost again

A little girl in a big girls world
I can't stand to see this anymore
neither can others and they have left

soon I to will be gone for ever

I don't need a looser as a friend

and i f you cry when you read this
i am sure you will again think I am a jerk
but hun I will tell you now
life isn't easy and the truth hurts

it could be near to the end...

but if you need me I will return until then....


Gotta help later - J

Human Nature

Hi all

I was just having a chat with my brother Colin about human nature.. mainly the church and relationships... this is the conclusion I came to...

It is human nature to take controal or should I reword that follow a leader... Now what do you mean by that some of you may ask well it is easy.. in the wild and in humanity it is always the survival of the fittest... the stronger Lion will take charge of the pack, even if they don't want to be.. someone or something always needs to be in control ie Alpha male / Alpha female.. or things fall apart... In a relationship if one has less confidence than the other or both are weak due to lets say bullying when they were younger or physical and verbal abuse from say teachers and family, or weight issues or other life happens one will step up be empowered and take control, sometimes even until it becomes abusive.. mentally abusive.. verbally abusive etc because it then becomes one sided.. the one being abused may try to fight back when others are around because they feel safer with physical support to back them but then in the long run may end up making them selfs look worse and instead of strengthening there confidence they collapse even further... if you can convince someone they can't think or act on their own.. eventually they will believe it, they will live it.. and they become easily swayed and weak... Trust me I have seen this happen!

Now this also applies to the Church.. I have personally seen the power of the Holy Spirit or whatever you want to call it... I am living proof of this, having survived a brain tumor I had when I was 14.. and I also know personally that this spirit moves where it wants and when it wants... it does not say no because you don't follow all the rules written by man.... it does not say no because someone saw you screw up and used it for their betterment even though they were uh lets say having an affair that no one knew about which was a hell of allot worse than anything you had done, but it was not your style to bring this to light.. you without sin cast the first stone.. hmm yeah Jesus did say that didn't he.... yes It does wants when it wants for the power of Good and the betterment of the universe and the beings within it! Now where the Church or should I say most human ran religions are wrong is that they were founded by this same spirit through the same Jesus Christ who was real and did exist I don't know what this trend is these days to re write history and try to convince us otherwise because it offends some people... that is like saying that my house is blue when it is brown.. anyway off topic but related... and the church was left to Peter... who was human.. who had flaws... as time went on we had some strong leaders and some weak leaders some who were easily swayed and some who were corrupt and in it for them selfs and this was all dragged along with it.. what started of as a pure flowing river has been tared with corruptness by humanity... Now these same people in leadership who are having affairs or whatever they are doing when one screws up takes it upon them selfs to let the other know.. and drags them down tries to put them in a box... now the Spirit is like a bird free to fly wherever it wants... if a bird is put in a box and not fed it dies ... so does the spirit within a person if it is not fed and allowed to grow.. this is were the church has it wrong.. the church needs to let go of this human reaction to take control and let the Spirit be free and move as it likes... raise people up don't destroy them for your betterment, because you have a guilty conscience and this person who is a little different than the rest.. to destroy them brings you a bit of joy in your shallow life....love one another as Christ taught us to and get off you high horses and realize you are not in control God is or whatever you like to call it.. this same entity just leaves you in trust... the anal retentiveness of todays church leaders are scaring people like my brother away and me too!! I will never loose my faith and my beliefs but I refuse to pay into their phony lies that hurt and kill the soul... wheres' the truth in that reality... I want more I deserve more and I long for more.. real pure spirituality, which I may not get untill I die... but I can wait...

until that day- J

Home

Hey all

I finally made it home it took me two days to get here but i made it. I feel so different, I dunno what it is exactly but something about me is different, I feel motivated maybe, more confident, refreshed and ready to take on whatever is thrown at me.. I have been finding myself slipping back and then jumping out you know.. not letting things get to me at much and caring about the things that really matter.. my real friends, my family and my loved ones.. I love it. I saw Ed today we talked a bit about his dad.. Ed told me his dad thought I was bad news.. it is so funny with that, in life I am eccentric, but not enough. I have my moments but I am not bad enough to play DJ with the girls, because I am not bad at the end of the day I know where I came from, and I respect people who respect me. Ironically Eds dad spoke to me about how happy he was I was on the ships at one point.. either way he is gone and I need to be there for Ed he is my friend, but I still don't like Joey.(my old drummer). It felt kinda weird hanging out with Jevon, you know, we had a pint at the Steam-works in Vancouver, went to see my new friend Kaylee in concert, I liked it though wanted to mainly listen and chat a bit last time I saw him I offloaded this time I attempted to be who I was and it didn't feel right so I cut back... I think I am going to go to church tomorrow. Jean stopped by today to I was disappointed none of us meaning me and my bros were on Roy's' Tribute video, but I am used to being left out now.. dad made a good point at the end of the day they aren't blood, they are like family to us but not our family... Doty was the same the same happened there, Nana was the same the same happened with her.. everyone was acknowledged except us and the fact we are not in England with the family there even though they are family the same will probably happen there.. I received a letter stating My ex has applied for an Annulment that excites me I have felt unwelcome in the church since we split this will clarify that.. well maybe i am feeling like this because Spring is here a time for new beginnings new life or maybe it is because my Springtime is finally here and it is my turn to right the wrongs.. as Roy would of said stating the great Frank Sinatra "Mistakes I've made a few but then again too few to mention, I did what I had to do and saw it through without Exemption, I've lived a life thats full I've traveled each and every byway and no oh no not me I did it My way" I have done it my way and not in the box and you know what no other way would work for me. SO sorry to everyone I have hurt I never meant to do that, but next time read between the lines and you may se the fuller picture I love you all and you know who you are.. night - jj

STRANDED!!

Hey all

Well I just signed off and I am Stranded in Houston yes Houston we do have a problem lol... met a buddy from the ships from Van and we are hanging out.. wanted to get a hold of my friend Sarah but it was too chaotic... maybe next time... so we tried to get a flight to Vegas which did not work so we are flyin out on a flight to Chicago instead.. never flown in there then to Vancouver so yeah life is always interesting lol.. I am sitting in a 24 hour Denny's here trying to stay awake and they have free net yay...

ttyl

JJ

Cruisin

Well here I am

In my last few days reflecting on cruise Ship life.... I really do love being at sea, meeting new people and using my talents in a productive way financially and personally.. but I want to do something different.. I mean don't get me wrong.. I do like DJing but it is not my passion.. I am a singer and an entertainer... I am good at Djing i can mix beats and have a great knowledge of music but I love to entertain.... I am excellent at that... no one else in the world can reach the heart like I can when I sing.. the soul even through the grace of God I am a distinct one of a kind individual this is part of my individuality.... it is my passion... wouldn't it be great if I could meet like minded people.. befriend them and embark on an amazing new ship adventure together... hell I would even love to have Kevin and Ed out here with me... but they are both grounded although I think I could sway Kevin a bit more... you know just for nostalgic purposes... I want to have a band on these cruising hotels... I love it out here the sea is for me but I want to entertain the masses make them smile and at the end of the day go home knowing I made a difference... like I used to, where I can then sleep peacefully.. instead of going home tense because some bitchy rich and drunk bimbo cursed the ground I walk on because they didn't get the song they requested yesterday... yes music is a dialog of the soul it nurtures both the soul of the person giving and the soul of the person receiving... what does DJing do.. it brings revenue to a bar gets, promotes constant over drinking, (not to say I don't like a few here and there) and makes upright citizens into drunk demanding and downright cruel Sluts... I don't want to promote this anymore it is not me.. DJing on land is one thing I love that i have a list and I can use it as needed but here... i know I have had my moments but at the end of the day I am still a Christian.. I still have a soul and a feeling heart that hurts like others I am not an object to be used as others please and I care about the souls and hearts of others I want to speak to their souls again like I used to... Like I have to... I want to be a man of integrity... an example to the one thing that lights my soul in the darkest of nights out here... the thing i love with all I am My neice and nephews.. and family - goodnight DJO

Ideas

Well here i am in the crew bar..

the norm.... I had the lowest bar bill i have ever had 12.00 yay just paid it.. sung in the crew show yesturday the norm You raise me up... so I am sitting next to Alex the teen DJ here and we were talking of my ideas for my new garage room i am thinking of basin it on my ship room you know everything exzact but instead of portholes putting a white screen there for a projector for movies and instead of a bathroom putting a studio in there crazy eh dunno if it will happen but i will keep you all informed if it does and take pics for the face book pic page..later J

A letter to my neice and Nephews...

This letter is for my Niece and Nephews’...

Hello Princess Kelsey, Pirate Liam and Spike (Connor)

Just wanted to tell you of my adventures down here in the Caribbean.... the other day while we were at sea coming into sint Marten (ST Marten) after passing Tortola and narrowly escaping Pirates I noticed something rather peculiar, as I looked out to the distance. At first I thought maybe a passenger had jumped off and decided to go for a swim but on further investigation I noticed it was a mermaid... She was beautiful Kelsey, she had long blonde hair much like yours and was very well spoken... she told me she had to tell me something and to meet her at a nearby beach when we stopped in sint Marten... So I set my alarm not to miss any time at all and early in the morning I left the ship, with my bag and laptop... for the closest beach... called coral cove... it was about a five minute walk but on my way there I saw something rather disturbing Liam.. The Pirates we had seen earlier were on a further point of the beach and digging I hid so not to be spotted and watched... they dug and dug and dug while they sung... We are the Pirates the mighty mighty pirates, and if you can't hear us we'll sing a little louder arrrg! Eventually they reached a large chest when they opened it; the chest was full of treasure... and rum... I waited until they took the treasure onto their Pirate ship, and then again as they sailed off into the distance... after I knew all was clear I quickly scurried down to the beach where they had been and you know what... They dropped two pieces of there treasure and a three of bottles of rum so I picked them up and quickly placed them in my bag... and hurried on my way incase they came back. A little further down the beach I ran into some fairies... at first I though they were bugs and swatted at them until they swatted back hehehe... what are you doing sir... watch where you swing those big arms... one said and one even hid as she thought I was an ogre... they were interesting little things.. One looked like a pink bunny… dad, and the others spoke many different languages... but they were kind. I told them how I had came to the beach and why I was there... I told them about the Pirates further up. They knew all to well about the pirates... one of there own had been held captive by those very same Pirates and as they were digging the little fairies had gone onboard they ship and rescued her and here they were on the beach now waiting for the wind to carry them back to the island of Saint Thomas.. I told them that was my next stop for the ship I was working on, they trembled a bit... “You aren’t a Pirate are you??” One asked, “no I am a DJ” I replied, “oh good” they said back; and then asked if they could join me... I said yes. We continued to walk, they flew of course, and then eventually out on a rock I saw the mermaid she was even more beautiful than I thought... she seemed to glow like and angel as I moved closer, and closer, and closer I asked the mermaid her name she said “My name is Aeries”, then with her soft voice she spoke... She said how she was honored and happy to see me, she told me she had traveled far across the ocean from a group of magical islands off the coast of Ireland, how some Leprechauns had told her the stories of the O’Neill’s and a few O’Neill’s in Particular.... Kelsey, Liam and Connor, she told me how stories of their Kindness had traveled to the far corners of the Earth and one in Particular...then she told me she had a special gift for my niece... I asked her how would they the leprechauns know of my Nephews and nieces... she went on to say every generation of O’Neill’s' have special people each with powers of there own but every thousand year even more magical O’Neill’s' emerge. These O’Neill’s’ have a connection with the fantasy realm and the realm of reality through their imagination... every thousand years a group of kids of are born this way, and the Leprechauns know, they tell the mermaids who search.... she added all the Mermaids know and admire Kelsey they hear about her daily fights with the Pirate King Liam... Liam doesn’t know this yet of course, as he is only 2, she then went on to tell of how but how Spike, their younger brother, and their Daddy& Mommy bring them together to work in harmony and to bring happiness to her Uncles, Grandparents, and Bill.. And for that they are grateful she said she knows Kelsey will soon turn five and had a special gift for that then she gave me the gift and placed it in my bag... I gave her a hug and thanked her for her kindness and returned to the ship. I went through Security check, luckily I got the rum and gifts on, but security forgot to check my pockets... I am letting the fairies out at St Thomas tomorrow...

Hope you all enjoyed Easter love you lots and see you next week

From the Magical Caribbean

Uncle

JJ

on the side Eds dad from Sheep died the other day just found out... RIP Mr D... the other sheep ....

A letter to Mum and Dad

Hi mum and dad

All is well had a bit of a difficult week last week but I took care of all situations professionally and abruptly as needed but tried not to go overboard (no pun intended) so it is all good for now.. Had a great night in the club last night, the few drinks helped, lol, I only had one person give me lip so I returned it but again in a professional way... To often people come to the booth and abruptly tell me how to do my job... or just straight forward that I suck and yell at me... so I have to remind them that I am the paid DJ up there and if they have a request and I have it and it works with the mix I will play it for them. The Latin people are especially passionate about their music, it has to be in Spanish, and they get verbal in a bad way.. had that happen last week by the end of the week I was drained and thinking this is just not worth that I am way better than that. hey need to understand and I do remind them, that I am from Canada where Merenge is a Type of pie with lemon in, salsa is something you dip your chips in and Reggeton when and i is added on the end is a pasta... not forms of music... so they are lucky I have any of it. I am doing a wedding dance tomorrow which again I will not be paid for as our company charges for the services and pays the Photographers but not the DJ even though they charge 80 dollars an hour for my service.. I talked to Whitefoot about it and he contacted head office who have said it needs to be changed but as of now that is how it is.. what a scam.. oh well.. what can I do not much such is life at sea a floating dictatorship... but I enjoy my job over all so I keep commin back.

As for that gal she has shun me out completely... and I refuse to chase after he for her friendship/ attention I am beyond that! But I am also stupid.. this happens all the time.. isn't repeating the same mistake over and over such as returning to the same situations on ships the first sign of insanity.. man I am so insane! I mean the ones I should be direct with I am gentle with... and the ones I should be gentle with I am abrupt with... There goes another one that I gave the benefit of the doubt to.. kindness does not pay out here I will tell you that! Frik it doesn't matter what I do sometimes. I am always wrong when it comes to women... one day I hope to be right.. with my choices and direction approach etc.. that is the day I will meet the Lady I am supposed to marry.

Now for my flight.. I have found my Flight info and it is as follows I will be arriving into Vancouver on the 6th of April (Sunday) at 11:49pm so I will be done by I am assuming 12:30am I know this is bad for everyone but I have no control of flights and they don't seem to give a crap about time traveled as they do this to me all the time.. I did think and agents responsability is to ensure the client receives the best treatment as far as travel and ship arrangements.. guess not well at least in the world of Whitefoot... I have to put a flame under his ass to get anything as we all know.

I will be on Continental to Vancouver...

See you all then hugs and such

JJ

All is well

Well I flexed my muscles and took care of everything today full backing of the Staff and deputy on the Mexican situation... spoke to the bartender and Mindy.. and you know what if she doesn't talk to me again it is ok I got the last word muhahahaha

J

Good day... uh yeah

Good Day

Good day everyone readin my blog and everyone else... Man oh man was yesturday interesting... Drama-rama you know... that gal I was talkin about here frikin woke me up at about 5pm.. ok 5pm doesnt sound that bad but I usualy get about 5 to 6 hours sleep before I get to Saint Thomas you know how it is close the club about 3:30 am and then wind down usually not sleeping untill 5am then I am up at 10 or 11am i get ready a I visit Temootu who as you know is on the NCL Disaster uh... Dawn.. so after I nap for a coupple of hours... well she woke me up and she has done that a coupple of times, I mean she asked me a bazillion times what I was doin that day you think she would of caught on.. but no prob right... wrong... well at least on here side I will explain... She wakes me up and says she is gonna sleep for a coupple of hours to get pizza and arrange to watch a movie she had brought as she has time before work... so I am awake now no more sleep i get off for half an hour as we have a bit of shore time still and pick up a phone card call mum etc as I earler mentioned i get back on at 5:30 and I wait... a coupple in my mind is two hours and waited some more... did some work finnal before the time I finnaly called her... about 7:50 ten minutes under 2 hours she answred and said she was sleeping and didnt start work untill ten pm... I called her back at about 8:30 and 9:30 and no answer now she isnt calling or answering at all.. I am wondering if she forgot somehow that I was waiting or if she is just trying to play mind games... I spoke to her friend who told me she had told him I kept calling I am assuming she went and slept in his room... such is ship life!! Anyway to top it off I was swarmed by a group of young wealthy Mexicans onboard at the end of the night to keep playing Mand play Mexican music... they do this everynight they got so rude and verbal with me that I ended up telling them to come back the next day on time not one am and I will consider you requests I am usually good but I will not be verbally attacked.. I mean they called me names said I was an asshole the worst DJ ever swore in Spanish and chanted.. then the mexican bartender joined in, idiot...welcome to my world it is fun out here but the Drama is why I want to look elsewhere for a career it follows me here.... J

yeah...

Well....

In Reference to yesturdays post.... some people are stupid... had a nice day with the ex today.. man I still do love her but ship life is ship life right... she is great... I hope she can get to Canada some day as for here.. my friend is stupid I want to yell it outloud a real stupid person an I diot even there that feels better.. she did what I was hoping she would not do a me kindoff and forgae him... but then they hung out with the girl and her friend and that makes me look like a fool now for even telling her.. eventhough the deputy here kinda hinted I finished the deed signed the deal as per say and tha sucks.. maybee I am the fool for trying.. well I am still gonna be her friend.. but man I am choacked esspecially because there is more I am not going to tell her unless she ends it. So that is that I am gonna hang out with her today and see what hapens! Spoke to Mum and she told me to keep a distance but stay her friend.. Myt sis in law and the kids were over.. talkin of my sis in law there is a gal on the ship who could be her sister I mean spitting image she is from abbotsford and presents her self in the same way Kristen did when I first met her nutts huh... I am gonna take some pics.. well all for now will up date later..

J

Hmmmm Sigh

Hey All

Well here I am on the Carribian Princess and drama has managed to find me yet again... I see Temootu tommorow... which is nice... although the feelings are not as strong as they were... now that I am almost certain these are the last times I am going to see her. Now on this side of things... there well there is a friend I have made and her and I realy click but she has a boy friend the irony is she met him not long after me and he moved in mind you I am really in no situation to move in as of now... just so much goin on.. Life, work situation, Temootu you know we have both opened up to each othr a bit though.... now tonight her boyfriend was making out with this girl in the night club which although bad I have done that too before it happens.. although I have never done anything else with anyone else when I was in a confident relationship .. now here is thesituation... He went downstairs and kissed her after he had done what he did then returned and procieded to get the other girls room number and then told her his and when I said be carefull he told me that she is only here for 6 weeks so it is not an importiant thing.. that is what he said about my friend.. I tried to pull her away from him.. this slut up stairs.. I tried to tell him his supervisor was there but... oh brb phone rang.... it was her... she just came by and got her CDs she is goin back to her room to listen to music and she is gonna call me in the morning... I was all worried this has happened before where I have jumped in and gotten involved... and I really want to move in but I can't that would make me as bad as him and I need to move away form that.... people do not respect someone like that.. that is not me... anymore... but I told her what happened.. I had to and people do not respect that either... such is me though eh.... man I feel like a looser in both ways... night J

Life at sea

Well here I am outside of Sint Martain... slept in so didn't bother goin' out... met a cool gal here... but before I could blink my eye she was snapped up such is ship life.. we are friends now... visiting with Temootu tomorrow.. it would be nice for that to advance but yeah as it stands right now we are just close friends... I mean chances are after these few weeks that may be it especially if she doesn't go to a ship out of Vancouver.. such is ship life. I have been dreaming again had a weird one about Jean last night... wasn't that good... so yeah.... I do worry about her she has been through an afull lot and I love her alot to as she is my God mother... we have always been close... disco is ok this week Lot's of Mexicans though they drive me nuts with their Spanish music requests lucky for me I have some of it this time... so it is working out... well I will update later.. J

Updates Updates

New news: Arrived in Miami safely had a nice chat with Amanda my P.R. Bud and I am now off to the big boat. March 12 th 08/ Well here I am floating the great blue seas.. I am between St Marten and Miami right now.. Marc 13th 08 hit has been interesting thus far.. Yay Spring break... what a party it was tonight full dance floor all night no issues March/14th - Saw Temootu today had a nice day with her... had a horrible night in the disco... the college kids have never heard of the song hot stuff or lets dance.. crazy shiat lol... forgot how rowdy drunk American College Kids can be it was hell tonight but i narrowly escaped with my life jkn not that bad but you get my point thank God for Anger Management or someone would of been layin the smack down on their sorry butts .. lol -J

DJO is back!

Hey all...

Well what a crazy night it was last night... We have started spring break here and the crowd is wild! I had a couple of drinks as well which helped, but I have never DJed for such a large crowd... however I knew what to expect as I DJed here before around the same time as Teen DJ.. It is so much fun though! The day started off with a wedding which was fun weddings on ships are always give and take.. went well all and all played a couple songs they didn't like then pulled it off.. always have a difficult time when it comes to Latin music as each country has there own type of music and being from Canada although I do enjoy some of it... it all sounds the same I can't tell it apart.. they can though and they are a culture very passionate about their music so you play the wrong type and yeah nuff said. Watching LFC kick some butt right now.. man this ref is yellow card happy just handin them out like they are candy... idiot.. mind you it has worked in our benefit! yay we are through baby, my boss here is an Everton fan.. hopefully for my sanity work wise they win tomorrow too!! ttyl - J

In Miami

Hey all.. Well I arrived in Miami a couple of hours ago.. the temp here is moderate... Had a bit of an issue when I was boarding luggage weight restrictions and Canada and LA are non sympathetic if you are a DJ with Equipment.. a bit of a pain but I figured it out.. I was there like 10 minutes before I was supposed to board by the time I had the security check etc thank God I pushed Dad when you are in a rush a 20 minute bathroom smoke just don't work oh yeas I come from a fine line of procrastinators... don't tell any one but I took stuff out to shut the lady at the checkout up.... then reloaded it in while I was being checked in front of the officer who found it quite amusing yeah one for the little people well in my case the big people but anyway...yeah... stupid weight restriction rules... well I waited near Zombified at Dallas airport for the connector.. cause there was this guy next to me who kept chatting and damn him it was interesting conversation lol so I finally got on the plane and to come here and the Lady sitting next to me had one of those rat dogs I think it is called a chihuahua in a cage so I pulled a dad in went the ear plugs and on went the eye cover and I was out until we hit turbulence about half an hour before landing... well we got here then we were stuck on the firkin landing strip while we waited for the idiot pilot in the other plane to move I was sensing the air strip plane rage... we got int here and waited for luggage then I was dropped of.. I hate that everyone needs to be tipped but oh well it cost me about 20 all and all today not to bad.. well night will update in the next couple of days

JJ

Soon I'll be at sea...

Well lots on my mind today...

First and foremost how some people can be so stubborn that they forget how much people important people, spouses, siblings, children..mean to them until it is too late then they are destroyed...

I see this happen way too often.. People who talk about how much they hate someone, how this someone treats them, because they really love them, because they just want some positive attention and they are not happy with the attention they are getting.. it is the wrong time, it is interrupting their TV show etc... I look at my own parents, and family members, and even me of old.

It is so sad I see people spend a lifetime together they start off in love so much in love then they grow distant because of arguments stemming from financial usually, job situations etc.. they either end up divorced like me, or slowly starting to hate each other until they almost live separate life's, they no longer sleep in the same bed, hold each other, embrace and comfort... They begin to sleep in separate rooms; or at different times. They do different activities, instead of agreeing to disagree and at times finding a common interest they can both participate in.. nothing will please them they expect and demand to be served by one another.. until one breaks then the other takes control and it goes on like this back and forth.. a survival technique.. it become a case of who can escape the best to save their sanity..

then on of them gets ill, very very Ill, near to death and the whole lifetime together comes down to the few months they have left with each other everything is new again fresh and renewed but it is too late..

After one of them dies the other is left wishing they would of never been as stubborn as they were.. and the rest of there life becomes a regret of what was missed...

What a horrible way to live.. I hope I learn from this .. I would rather stay single than to be like that where I grow to hate someone... until I realize how much I actually love them, when it is too late.

J

Next step

Well here I am

Watching TV with mum... My Godfather is in Hospital dieing and I just got a call out to the Ships again.. a chance to see Temootu.. we wil be in two of the same ports each week for a month... also I have started a course personal assasements and such.. so much going on.. well I have chosen to go back out.. this may be my last time I told Roy and seem to have his blessing so that is that..lets see what happens next love you Uncle Roy always have fun forever with nan and Doty...

Feelin' Bumed

Man I am feelin' down today, got a few things on my mind... and I am still a little sore from the surgery.. you know how it is.. I am realizing in life sometimes you have to for the sake of it just stick to your convictions.. & be a little stubborn even if it sucks! I am feeling trapped because of it trapped in this alternate reality and I don't like it.. but I am gonna keep going... Like in the song "Why" that I wrote in my Teens.. "I wanna get all that I can maybe somethings that I can't so I'm gonna keep on going..." and so I will continue to wait hopefully things will speed up to meet my pace and also the groups involved but persistence and perseverance should get me what I need in time... and then the next step... which I have yet to figure out.. to all those I love... I will continue to, to all those who I loved but have stopped loving me, I am sorry for any troubles I have caused I will always have a place here for you if you ever need me, to all those who have left before their time I love you and will never forget you.. you will live on as long as I live... your Legacy survives. Always!

Looking fwd to Spring

J

Dreading Later Today

Well here I am,

3 in the morning... I have to go in for minor surgery today... Luckily a friend is coming to the Hospital with me.. Parents are out of town with my bro and my other bro will be busy writing his drivers test.. I am nervous.. hate surgery.. last time i was in was for Carpo tunnel in my hand I have never been in so much pain it was for three days straight i still bothers me... before that the Brain tumour it is nothing major like that though but I wish family was there with me... or my best friend like she was last time she lives in Alberta now...well wish me luck gonna try to sleep a bit here... night - J

February / 3rd / 2008

Well here I am back in Canada been back for a month and a half now... I am cookin in the kitchen here, loving every minute of it... don't get to cook when I am on the ships... we are watching The Superbowl and the game looks like it could go either way... I would love to see New England make a perfect year though.... either way neither is my team.. I like the Seahawks as they are local... I am more of a soccer (football) and Hockey fan anyway, but I do enjoy Superbowl well have to run I think my sausage rolls are burning... later -DJO